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December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?
I’m not good at letting go. I hold grudges and often catch myself daydreaming about the past and about what could have been.
This year I let go of a part of my identity. I let go of home, of my friends, and of my student life in Heidelberg. I let go of something that defined me for the past eight years. While I felt that I was ready to move on and happy to finally hold my diploma, I still catch myself thinking of myself as a student. And when I think about it, and really make myself realize that that is part of my past, it still blows my mind. It still doesn’t quite feel real.
I was in university for so long and I have been a student for even longer so not being one anymore all of a sudden is weird. Maybe that will change, when I start working and thus become part of a new group. But right now I’m neither one nor the other, which makes it hard to let go of what I used to be.
Something tells me the best is yet to come.
The transition from being a student to a working adult is one of the biggest transitions we go through in our lives, I believe. I am not surprised that you picked this topic for today’s prompt. It instantly came to my mind when I thought about what you might possibly write about.
You know, ironically that is why I was a bit hesitant to actually blog about it at first. It has been such a dominant topic on my blog lately that I fear I am becoming a little repetitive. But then I thought, it is what my life is revolving around at the moment, so it only makes sense that my blog reflects that.
It might be repetitive for your other readers, but for anyone else coming by from Reverb10 (like me!), it’s new :)
Changing out of student mode is a big transition. I can still remember it years (okay, many years) later.
And while I’m here: Your banner and images are just lovely.
Congratulations on letting go of your student title! After being a student, the best part really does happen.
I’ll never forget how good it felt to finally be finished studying – to let go to that part of life and be able to relax a little — the feeling of constant impending doom slowly broke away, but it took a lot of time to get used to — ha, and here I go again, ready to sign up for 3 more years.
Ahhhhh!!!
Nice blog :)
Ah well, I still didn’t let you go in some way. Last week I saw some girl at uni and she looked like you. I already wanted to walk over to her, when I remembered that you’re not here anymore! Guess it still has to suck in that you’re not around anymore. :(
This transition is such a fun one- after I got out of university I went through a whole big “who am I again?” phase that was so freeing! Not only do you finally have the time to actually explore that question, you can take as long as you like to answer it :)
While I haven’t finished school and don’t know of the exact transition you’re going through, I’ve definitely had times of big, big change that have made me wonder exactly who I am and left me without a definition for myself. I’m excited to learn what comes next for you (as I’m sure you are too :)!
I am hoping to make this transition in 2011. I am looking forward to reading about all your adventures next year. It will be so much fun moving into you own place, decorating everything and maybe even getting a pet. ;) Btw, thanks again for that great conversation we had the other day. It’s nice to speak German every once in a while. It seems like my “Wortschatz” has shrunk so much in the past 1.5 years since I only talk to my parents/sister once a week.