First post on my new self-hosted blog with my own domain! If you are subscribed via the Feedburner feed, you might have missed this, but my blog has moved to http://dreamoncemore.net/. I stumbled upon an irresistible offer of getting one year of hosting and this domain for a total of $9.95. No, that is not per month. That’s all I’m paying for the entire year! Amazing, huh? If you are interested in this offer, let me know, and I will send you the link (it’s a Christmas special). My site was up and working within five minutes of placing the order, and so far I am very impressed with how quickly I was able to set up my blog.
I could say that self-hosting my blog with my own domain is a reward for this huge achievement that my thesis is, but really? It’s just an excuse. I have been missing WordPress so much (can you miss a blogging platform?) and WordPress.com is just not the same. When I installed the blog this afternoon, it felt so familiar, I am loving being back.

But to get back to the milestone I am referring to in the title of this post … As of Wednesday, I am done with the writing of my thesis. I still have a fair bit of proofreading and double-checking citations to do but the writing part is officially done with. This thesis has been weighing me down for the past couple of months, and the past few weeks were especially taxing. I was working on my thesis so much and pulled three all-nighters, writing until the wee hours of the morning, and can I just give you one piece of advice? All-nighters are not a good idea. I was procrastinating too much so I didn’t have much of a choice, and I was always really happy with how much I accomplished in those nights, but it was so so hard. On Tuesday night I was up until 9am Wednesday morning, and wrote a total of 13 pages. By about 6am my head was feeling tired and I felt like there was a wall closing in on my brain, so much pressure! But you know what? Wednesday afternoon I only had the conclusion left to write, so in retrospect, it was completely worth it just to be done with that chapter (and I don’t think the content suffered).
I am proud of how well I ended up doing over the past few weeks after taking months to actually get started on my thesis, and I am happy with the outcome, I am thrilled that my health didn’t fail me, but I also paid a steep price. I cut down on everything else that is a part of my life: friends, gym, classes, blogging, you name it. I felt like such a bad friend, especially to the three friends of mine who proof-read my thesis for me. I barely talked to them about anything but the thesis, and I hardly ever saw them. Or any other friends for that matter, but I feel like I was taking so much and not giving anything. And I really did not feel capable of giving. Especially over the past week I was impatient, with me and others, and feeling incredibly unsocial. For weeks I would simply avoid logging into instant messengers because I did not want people to start conversations with me. I just did not have the patience for that. I was actually glad that two of my roommates were not here until yesterday and that my best friend did not come back from her vacation until Wednesday, because I knew I would not be able to give her the attention she deserves (and maybe I still can’t).
I guess it only makes it worse that I have been watching so. much. TV. I have been watching seasons one and two of Eureka and season one of Fringe to be able to get away from my thesis a little, and that really is a lot of TV if you watch entire seasons. But you know, the TV didn’t actually ask anything of me, I could just take without giving anything, and I never actually had to leave my desk, which somehow made me feel less bad about it. I hate how self-absorbed I was in the past few weeks, but I also know that this was one of those things you only do once in life, so I just had to get it over with. Well, I suppose taking my exams this spring & summer might get similar as far as stress goes.
And you know what? I miss my friends. I miss being able to hang out without feeling bad for not working on my thesis. And that is why I have made plans with three friends for next week already, and I cannot wait! I am handing in my thesis on Tuesday morning (three days early, go me!), and then I will be enjoying a few days of hanging out with friends, going back to the classes I temporarily dropped out of in November, going to work, and just going back to normal. At least for a little bit. Because I will have to start preparing for my exams pretty as soon as I can and that phase will last until July. July! I just hope that better time management, I will not have any more weeks like the past two.